WTF Is Actual Hope In Apocalypse?+Updated Free Series Link
( Trigger Warning: violent themes mentioned)
Hello Dear Ones,
As I sit here watching the rain drip drop on my window pane I feel utter dread for what is coming…I feel anger and a fire swelling in my belly for how much we as humans have had to fight so hard & long for injustice’s that are literally so clearly unfathomably violent. For the past few days I have been ebbing and flowing with my familiar friend grief & navigating what has truly felt like a tipping point in the US and the world at large. The collective has felt overflowing & uncontainable.
I am overcome with tears as I think about all of the college protests taking place here in Oregon and all around the world…my skin literally gets goosebumps of hope as these brave students risk their graduation, bodies, status, diplomas, clean records and suspensions to fight for what is right & be in active solidarity with/for the Palestinian people who face famine, rape, bacterial filled water, children wanting to kill themselves after losing their entire families or worse having their arms and legs ripped from their bodies from bombs being thrown at them and unable to walk again.
I want to throw up…I want to scratch my fingernails into the dark soil of the earth and scream with her at the genocidal apocalypse that is taking place in Gaza. If only my tears kept someone alive…if only my rage could stop the shut down of Al Jazzera’s Office that was just raided hours ago from being overtaken by Israel and the only democracy now going black…If only my vomiting could stop Israel from forcing displaced Palestinian’s in Rafah to evacuate in the next 4 hours before they annihilate everything single person, place or thing in it’s path again and purposefully target and kill children.
If only my dread could have saved 53 year old Frank Tyson from being murdered by Police on April 28th 2024 while telling police “ I Can’t Breathe!” as police arrested him and did not try to save him for 3 min. How the fuck are we still here? Have we not heard the cries of George Floyd enough when he called out for his mama and telling police “I Can’t Breathe! ” But nothing I feel will bring him back or any others…I feel as though collectively we are in a perpetual ground hogs days of hell except it’s an energetic repeat & revisiting of 2020. Will we radically shift from what we have learned?
So, what is hope then? I asked my spirit guides this morning as I laced up my walking shoes and started out the front door. They responded: "Hope is seeking council of the ancient ones before you” and just then I looked up to see a grand fir tree in front of me almost glistening with a radiance I had never noticed before. I wrapped my arms firmly around the tree and wept, shaking in pain & confusion…I asked this being “what is there to do from here? when everything feels so overwhelming?” and I heard “you notice what the ones who have been through it all are doing and learn” Just then a Bumblee bee literally flew into me eye, making me wobble on the side walk and step back.
I was shaken awake by this interaction….and that’s when I started to notice the smell of the flowers right next to me… how had I not even smelled them before? So, I breathed them in…then I noticed the crow sitting on the grass right behind me eating it’s morning bowl of of bugs and I smiled inside….then I heard the laughter of a baby inside a house and couldn’t help but chuckle….I breathed deep and noticed the cool wind on my face…I felt hot tears roll down my cheek as I remembered what a fucking miracle it is to still be alive and to feel safe enough to walk outside and experience all of this.
Suddenly I heard the words: “walk, walk for those who can’t ” So I walked and walked and walked for hours around my neighborhood until I reached the ridgeline of the forest and my legs collapsed underneath me. I cried again feeling the care & holding of the earth in so many things…the branches dancing and reaching out to me…the birds letting me watch them hop around the grass…the sun coming out through the clouds and kissing my skin. And that’s when I heard the beings speak to me and say:
“You are here to feel it all, to let it move through you and learn from this, really learn from this. Then take these learnings and put action behind it. You are not the only ones who will shift this, this time is all the generations that are now and all the generations that will come. You are seeds among many. Be intentional with your seeding & release trying to control when it will all end. That is not up to you and yet has everything to do with the shaping you all choose to do at this time. Do not give up hope, for your hope is what so many are counting to bring change”
Wherever you find yourself today, I hope these words find you, seep into your heart and you find your piece, your edge, your seed to learn from and then put action behind something that grows into a future that we may not live to see but are determined to fight for & protect that is wildly different than anything we can actually even imagine right now.
I love you all so much
In grief filled hope,
Ash
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“Israeli warplanes pounded targets in the southern Gaza city of Rafah on Monday as its military told about 110,000 people sheltering there to leave, heightening fears among Palestinians that Israel was inching closer to invading the city in defiance of international pressure.”
~New York Times Isabel Kershner, Myra Noveck and Liam Stack contributed reporting.— Vivek Shankar and Matthew Mpoke Bigg
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